Sunday, September 18, 2016

11th month


Never that I thought it will come to this eleven moon ago.

Know that my heart can and always want to do the waiting forever.

But I will try this one, too. For starting over. Or move on. Or whatever terms that people may call it.

Friday, September 2, 2016

10th month

Hai awak yang entah di mana-mana,

I ran my maiden ultra last weekend. How far should I continue running, to convince you that I am worth for you to at least, stay?

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Flying a kite

At the time when you dreaming of having both world, remember that my only world: the one that I put all my resources; the one that I hope with the word future in it, was ripped away from me, partially due to your mouth.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Don't live a half life by Khalil Gibran

Poem beautifully written by Khalil Gibran:

Do not love half lovers
Do not entertain half friends
Do not indulge in works of the half talented
Do not live half a life and do not die a half death

If you choose silence, then be silent
When you speak, do so until you are finished
Do not silence yourself to say something
And do not speak to be silent

If you accept, then express it bluntly
Do not mask it

If you refuse then be clear about it
for an ambiguous refusal
is but a weak acceptance

Do not accept half a solution
Do not believe half truths
Do not dream half a dream
Do not fantasize about half hopes

Half a drink will not quench your thirst
Half a meal will not satiate your hunger
Half the way will get you no where
Half an idea will bear you no results

Your other half is not the one you love
It is you in another time yet in the same space

It is you when you are not

Half a life is a life you didn't live,
A word you have not said
A smile you postponed
A love you have not had
A friendship you did not know

To reach and not arrive
Work and not work
Attend only to be absent

What makes you a stranger to them closest to you and they strangers to you

The half is a mere moment of inability but you are able for you are not half a being

You are a whole that exists to live a life not half a life

Khalil Gibran

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

6 months

Cant you see how hard i bend over backwards trying not to fall into the dark deep hole like he did?

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Road to Redemption

We have grown quiet these days. And I have never feel that silence can be this loud. I wanted to tell you everything, but I tell you nothing.

And by saying "you", I am not referring to any love lost in translation or any soulmate who come into my life temporarily to show me the light.

The "you" I am referring, is maybe companion in the form of solitude. Or something to that effect, maybe.

"You" maybe is the speed demon I trade in with whatever fragile, naive soulful writer that I have in me just to redeem the shattered pieces we called heart.

And that's basically explain the hiatus in here, and in there.