Sunday, May 21, 2017

Of my eight FM

I am worried (good) memories passed by without being celebrated.

Life is short. These are moments that need to be celebrated.

Yes, I used redundant words, and it is lame but I dont really care.

Later I will make a proper entry when I have the time on how I use what I learn from last ultra to how I ran yesterday run.

Till then, I hope this short note will portray how much I feel blessed to finally realise I still able to run my second most favourite distance.

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Used to.

Hi the non-existence,

I won one of ultra running event few weekends ago.

My bestfriend said, "10 years ago, you would not imagine getting cash out of running, kan?"

I dont imagine a lot of thing that would happened today, but what I would not imagine the most is seeing you gone.

Friday, October 28, 2016

12th month

It has been a year.

And I thought it was all in the past and I was all strong until I bump into you and your friend.

I saw your face glowing and were all light up. You seem happier now.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

11th month

Never that I thought it will come to this eleven moon ago.

Know that my heart can and always want to do the waiting forever.

But I will try this one, too. For starting over. Or move on. Or whatever terms that people may call it.

Friday, September 2, 2016

10th month

Hai awak yang entah di mana-mana,

I ran my maiden ultra last weekend. How far should I continue running, to convince you that I am worth for you to at least, stay?

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Flying a kite

At the time when you dreaming of having both world, remember that my only world: the one that I put all my resources; the one that I hope with the word future in it, was ripped away from me, partially due to your mouth.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Don't live a half life by Khalil Gibran

Poem beautifully written by Khalil Gibran:

Do not love half lovers
Do not entertain half friends
Do not indulge in works of the half talented
Do not live half a life and do not die a half death

If you choose silence, then be silent
When you speak, do so until you are finished
Do not silence yourself to say something
And do not speak to be silent

If you accept, then express it bluntly
Do not mask it

If you refuse then be clear about it
for an ambiguous refusal
is but a weak acceptance

Do not accept half a solution
Do not believe half truths
Do not dream half a dream
Do not fantasize about half hopes

Half a drink will not quench your thirst
Half a meal will not satiate your hunger
Half the way will get you no where
Half an idea will bear you no results

Your other half is not the one you love
It is you in another time yet in the same space

It is you when you are not

Half a life is a life you didn't live,
A word you have not said
A smile you postponed
A love you have not had
A friendship you did not know

To reach and not arrive
Work and not work
Attend only to be absent

What makes you a stranger to them closest to you and they strangers to you

The half is a mere moment of inability but you are able for you are not half a being

You are a whole that exists to live a life not half a life

Khalil Gibran